I’ve always wanted to be a writer.
I was one of those types who thought the library was the most fascinating place on earth. In fact after wanting to be an astronaut (and being told quite sternly that was not a possibility) I set my sights on an equally adventurers job, that of a librarian.
My thirst for wanting to go into space was driven by a need to satisfy my curiosity of wanting to know more. So I figured I could probably read my way around the earth and even to space through the conduit of books.
I used to read through my entire library loan collection of 10 books within 6 days. I would return them to the library to hand over the old books whose knowledge , adventure and information I had sucked up like a Dyson Hoover and come home cradling my new stack like a precious new-born.
I read whilst I ate my breakfast, whilst waiting for my family to get ready for a party and in bed when I was meant to be sleeping. The lure of books was too great. I was totally absorbed and immersed in these bookish worlds and all I wanted to do was to be like the person who created this utter marvel.
But then I grew up and somehow acquired the mindset that I could make a decent living from writing.
But in today’s world, things have moved on so far. Writing a book IS a credible business model. It CAN be used as part of your overall offerings, as part of your speaking business or your consulting business. But the key thing remains the same.
You want to write a book because you have a message you want to share with others. And when that voice inside gets too loud it becomes awfully selfish to keep that vital message to yourself. You are in fact now inclined to spread that dear message.
This is why I was propelled and felt compelled to write my next book on how to find your passion and purpose in life. I have a message that I want to tell others. I know it can only benefit them if they hear my message. And here is my message:
Life is too short doing work that doesn’t matter to you
You are an energy force, a powerful being and you have a right to live a life full of freedom and joy
Be in service to your community and to humanity
And you can only do then when you are shining your own light
And your light only shines when you are alive
And you are only alive when you live with meaning, a purpose and with passion
I don’t think I ‘wasted’ a decade in banking. It was an experience which showed me what I didn’t want. And sometimes that’s a good thing.
You need to know what you don’t want in order to narrow down what it is you DO want. And if you do not know what you DO want then its a good place to start from a process of elimination and think about the things you definitely DO NOT want and work your way backwards through there.
And here is the magical bit. You already know what it is you want. You know who you want to be.
Just ask your 10-year-old self. Chances are she had been planning what you should be doing. But somewhere along the line you acquired certain thought patterns. Some people told you it couldn’t be done. Your energy waned. Your passion waned. And then you accepted whatever the situation was.
But it doesn’t have to be this way.
It’s truly never too late to come back to life again. As long as you are breathing you have a new opportunity at every moment to change your circumstances.
I decided I wanted to go back to fulfilling my dream of being a writer.
I got rid of the negative mindset about publishing, thinking that the only way I could get a book out was through the traditional routes.
I opened myself up to creativity and opportunity.
I stopped waiting for a permission slip telling me I was a writer.
Because I wrote the permission slip for myself.
You are entitled to your dream. Yes entitled. I know sometimes entitlement carries with it negative connotations but it is in fact your birth right to be happy and to be doing what brings you joy.
I’m currently reading Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert, and in the book she talks about how the poet David Whyte calls this sense of creative entitlement ‘the arrogance of belonging’.
It simply means that you are already entitled to live a full and creative life simply because you are here! Yes that’s right! And this is a vital privilege to have and to be if you want to live your life in full colour.